I have moved to Live Journal

I have moved to Live Journal as my new Bloging format as i put together my official website anyone who cares to keep track of me can do so by going to nicholasmanning.livejournal.com I look forward to hearing from you over there. Also Nicholasmanningonline.com is live but it still needs alot of work but please keep checking back as i put up links Thanks its been a great run.

Hello all just a quick note to say hello and let evreyone know im doing great and i will put up a more detailed post tomorrow but for right now im tired and heading off to bed.

Official Website launching in March

Greetings all well today was uneventful i did however get together with my friend Kyle Alexander and talk to him about putting together a plan to get me an official website up and running by the end of March and so to that end next sunday we will be getting together to start putting together what will be my official website which im hoping will be launching no later than March 31st. Im feeling ok today not great but a little better than i have in the last week since my disastorous reunion with my mother. It still hurts a great deal but i think im going to be ok and ill be able to move on with my life.\I hope evreyone has a great day!!!

Im back In Seattle

I returned to Seattle today im feeling very numb and still have not processed fully the events of this week. I want to say a Big Thank you to all my friends for your love and support during this difficult time. I love you all very much!!!

My Family reunion goes badly as my mother rejects me

Hello all well yesterday i went to see my mother for the first time in over 10 years. I had very high hopes for a reconcilliation between us however any hopes i may have had for us to be a family again were dashed by my mother. She explained to me that in her eyes i was a mistake that she had made a long time ago and that she hadnt given me a single thought since she left. I was completely devestated by her words. Im still in a state of shock and cant quite wrap my head around the fact that my mother doesnt love me. I feel very hurt and at the moment im not sure what im going to do. I hope evreyone,s week in Seattle is going better than mine here in Denver.

Denver Colorado

So i arrived in Denver Colorado today and im feeling a whole mix of emotions as i will finally be reunited with my mother. Im hoping to go see her tomorrow. I hope evreyone in Seattle is having a great week

Revisiting my past

Greetings all well This week is very important to me on a very personel level. On Monday im leaving for Denver Colorado to see my mother for the first time in over 10 years. My parents divorced when i was 12 and i was raised (if you can call it that) by my father. Last year i set out to find my mother. I felt there was a piece of me missing like there was this unanswered part of my life. I desperately want to feel needed so i found someone who is a private investigator and in November of 2008 He had found her. I was so excited when he had tracked down and i was ready then to go and be reunited with her. However after discussing it with My close friends i decided that i needed time to get myself stable emotionally and mentally having just been been diagnoised with Bipolar Disorder at the time my friends were concerned that a possible rejection by my mother might cause me to suffer a Breakdown so i waited. Now im just a few days away from being reunited with her and it feels really good. I hope evreyone is having a great weekend.