I have moved to Live Journal

I have moved to Live Journal as my new Bloging format as i put together my official website anyone who cares to keep track of me can do so by going to nicholasmanning.livejournal.com I look forward to hearing from you over there. Also Nicholasmanningonline.com is live but it still needs alot of work but please keep checking back as i put up links Thanks its been a great run.

Hello all just a quick note to say hello and let evreyone know im doing great and i will put up a more detailed post tomorrow but for right now im tired and heading off to bed.

Official Website launching in March

Greetings all well today was uneventful i did however get together with my friend Kyle Alexander and talk to him about putting together a plan to get me an official website up and running by the end of March and so to that end next sunday we will be getting together to start putting together what will be my official website which im hoping will be launching no later than March 31st. Im feeling ok today not great but a little better than i have in the last week since my disastorous reunion with my mother. It still hurts a great deal but i think im going to be ok and ill be able to move on with my life.\I hope evreyone has a great day!!!

Im back In Seattle

I returned to Seattle today im feeling very numb and still have not processed fully the events of this week. I want to say a Big Thank you to all my friends for your love and support during this difficult time. I love you all very much!!!

My Family reunion goes badly as my mother rejects me

Hello all well yesterday i went to see my mother for the first time in over 10 years. I had very high hopes for a reconcilliation between us however any hopes i may have had for us to be a family again were dashed by my mother. She explained to me that in her eyes i was a mistake that she had made a long time ago and that she hadnt given me a single thought since she left. I was completely devestated by her words. Im still in a state of shock and cant quite wrap my head around the fact that my mother doesnt love me. I feel very hurt and at the moment im not sure what im going to do. I hope evreyone,s week in Seattle is going better than mine here in Denver.

Denver Colorado

So i arrived in Denver Colorado today and im feeling a whole mix of emotions as i will finally be reunited with my mother. Im hoping to go see her tomorrow. I hope evreyone in Seattle is having a great week

Revisiting my past

Greetings all well This week is very important to me on a very personel level. On Monday im leaving for Denver Colorado to see my mother for the first time in over 10 years. My parents divorced when i was 12 and i was raised (if you can call it that) by my father. Last year i set out to find my mother. I felt there was a piece of me missing like there was this unanswered part of my life. I desperately want to feel needed so i found someone who is a private investigator and in November of 2008 He had found her. I was so excited when he had tracked down and i was ready then to go and be reunited with her. However after discussing it with My close friends i decided that i needed time to get myself stable emotionally and mentally having just been been diagnoised with Bipolar Disorder at the time my friends were concerned that a possible rejection by my mother might cause me to suffer a Breakdown so i waited. Now im just a few days away from being reunited with her and it feels really good. I hope evreyone is having a great weekend.

hey Evreyone!! i hope evreyone is having a great day. Not much going on with me. I have been busy with school and looking forward to the weekend. My Buddy Kurt is coming up from Bellingham to hang out with me. It should be great hanging out with him and finally getting a chance to really know him. Have a great Day evreyone!!!

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My Weekend In Bellingham

Greetings Evreyone well i have returned from my weekend in Bellingham with my friends. I had a great time it was good to see evreyone and hang out together. I split my time between Thomas and Clinton,s Dorm room and Rob and Ben,s Apt. We Watched Harry Potter And The Chamber Of Secrets as im trying to get Clinton caught up on the series before the premiere of Harry Potter And The Half Blood Prince This summer. We also got a group of people together and we went to The Olive Garden for lunch. A good time was had by all. I already have tenative plans to make another trip up to Bellingham again in late Febuary. Im feeling good if just a little tired but other than that no complaints. I hope evreyone is having a great day!!!

Leaving for Bellingham today

I will be leaving for Bellingham today to spend the weekend with my friends. I will be back on sunday night. Untill then Have a great weekend and talk to you all aupon my return!!

Preping for a trip to Bellingham

Today has been busy as im getting ready to go to Bellingham and see my friends. I have a pretty full schedule of fun fun fun planned with my friends. It will be great to see all of them. I went and got my haircut today and have started packing. i will be leaving Tomorrow and will be back on Sunday night. Ill be sure to take lots of pictures while im there and post them here when i return. Have a great Day Evreyone.

Today was good i have a new couch well new to me anyways. Kyle came by and dropped off his couch as his new one will be delivered next week. After we moved the couch we went to lunch at Red Robin. It was a very mellow day. Im still feeling a little depressed and spent the remainder of the day watching tv. Clinton and Thomas called me today and want me to come to Bellingham for a visit so next weekend i will be heading up there to hang out with them for the weekend. Im pretty excited about getting out of town and seeing my friends again. Its been a long day and im feeling tired so im going to head of to bed. Hope evreyone is having a great night.

    

Today was a not a great day as i woke up feeling just a bit down. I felt irritated and just out of sorts all day. I think it might be time for my Dr to tweak my medication because i can definitely feel an episode of my Bipolar starting to come on. Thank God its the weekend so i wont have to much to stress out over. Im looking forward to taking it easy this weekend. Kyle and i are planning on going out to lunch then he will be giving me his old couch as he is getting a brand spanking new one and i definitely need to replace my poor futon which is on its last legs so this works out well for both of us. I hope evreyone has a good night and enjoys there weekend.

Hello all well today was great as i had the chance to see my buddy Luke today and catch up with him and we exchanged Christmas Presents it was great and then tonight i went out with Chris to the Olive Garden and hung out with him for awhile. It was definitely great catching up with those guys as i dont see them on a regular basis come to think of it i really dont see anyone all that regularly and thats really something i need to work on. Im off to bed its been a long day. Good night evreyone.

Happy Birthday Thomas

Greetings all I want to take this opportunity to wish Thomas Beirne a very happy Birthday!!! Thomas is one of my best friends and all around awesome person. I wish you all the best in the coming year.

More Snow

Surprise Surprise woke up this morning to snow falling. I honestly thought we had seen the end of the Seattle Snow apparently not. So i stayed indoors today and watched t.v. Very boring day. Hopefully the snow wont stick around as long as it did last time and the temperature will go up. Im really hoping so as i have plans with my buddy Luke to go out to lunch and catch up on each others lives. We havent seen each other since last may so im really hoping i get to see him tomorrow. Have A great night evreyone

Greetings all It was a very laid back day as i stayed home and did nothing. Nothing too exciting to report on as of late my life in general seems to have settled into a peaceful rythym with no extreme highs and crushing lows and the voices and the hallucinations seem to have been quited. I feel hopeful that perhaps i might have finally found the peace that seemed to have evaded me in 2008. Im relishing the feeling of normalcy of that much i am sure. I hope evreyone is enjoying there weekend~ peace

Greetings all well today was uneventful as all i really did was hang out with Kyle and we went to the movies. Im feeling good and optimistic about this year. Nothing is going on this weekend and ill probably just hang out at the house. I hope evreyone has a great weekend~

Happy New Year 2009

Happy New year Evreyone!!! Here,s wishing evreyone a happy and safe new years!!! Today was uneventful. Me and Rob woke up around 10am and i made waffles for Breakfast and we watched T.V after awhile Rob had to get back home so he left and Kyle Called and wanted to get together because he had presents for me. So Kyle and i got together and we had lunch and i opened his birthday presents. He got me The Best of Sarah Mclachlan and The Dark Knight both very good choices. After lunch we went and got ice cream and walked around the mall. All in all not a very exciting day but that was fine by me as i was still pretty tired from the night before. Kyle and i are planning on getting together tomorrow to go see a movie and have lunch. Hopefully by then i will have caught up on my sleep. man im so tired and on that note ill bid you all farewell for now peace~