Gretings evreyone I hope evreyone is enjoying there weekend. Mine has been busy so far. Nick Steffl and Nate Hoover came up this afternoon and we went to dinner and then we went to The Movies to see Madagascar 2 It was awesome. Nate,s Girlfriend Allison also joined us and it was great getting to know her. Tommorrow we will be celebrating Thanksgiving together along with my other friends from Bellingham. I had an awesome day and am feeling great and very blessed to be surrounded by the people who mean the most to me.

Happy Thanksgiving

Greetings i just wanted to take a moment to wish evreyone a very happy thanksgiving!! I feel so blessed to have such an amazing group of friends who have stood by me and loved me even when i didnt love myself and never gave up on me. Thank you to all my wonderful friends!!!

Greetings Evreyone i hope you are all well and looking forward to the thanksgiving holiday i know i am. Im feeling both excited about having my friends over and very aprehensive that something will go wrong but hopefully evreything will go smoothly. So i spent today getting some last minute things done and im still not finished. Tommorrow i will be spending the Thanksgiving holiday with my friend Dan and his family and i will also be taking Shiloh with me so im excited to see how she does around other dogs. Then on friday i will really need to buckle down and get evreything ready for the dinner that im preparing for saturday. Nick and Nate will be arriving on friday afternoon so i will really be under pressure to get evreything done before they arrive. Im feeling good and looking forward to the long weekend although it wont be too relaxing because i will be entertaining im sure ill enjoy the company of my family all under one roof.

Greetings I hope evreyone has had a fantastic day i know i have. As of today it has been 7 months since i met my best friend Eric and he introduced me to one of the greatest group of people i have ever met. These people are not just my friends they have become my family and i could not imagine life without them. So to all of you out there thank you guys so much your continued love and support mean the world to me. I love you guys!!!

Busy Week ahead of me as Thanksgiving Approaches

Hello All i hope your weekend has been relaxing. Ive had a busy day but very good day as far as my moods go. I feel great and so far i have suffered no side effects of the medication to treat my Bipolar disorder. I gave Shiloh a bath to treat her scratching and it seems to have worked so im hoping she now feels better. I have a rather busy week ahead of me as it is the week of Thanksgiving and i will be getting last minute things done before my Thanksgiving dinner party this saturday. Im feeling just a little aprehensive as to the number of people i have coming over. Im terrified im going to run out of food or im going to burn the turkey or something like that. I just hope and pray evreything goes smoothly. But im getting ahead of myself first ive got a few things i need to get done this week before the dinner so needless to say i have a very full and busy week ahead of me. I hope evreyone has a great night.

Greetings all Today has been an uneventful day. I was feeling good looks like my meds are kicking in already. I spent the day at home just watching tv and playing with Shiloh. Speaking of Shiloh it seems that she has something wrong with her skin as she is constantly scratching and nawing at her hind legs poor little girl. I suspect she may have fleas and from what ive read her symptoms match up with an infestation of fleas. So tomorrow im going to the Pet Store to get some Special Shampoo to try and kill her fleas and hopefully she,ll feel better. Tonight im going out to dinner with friends and then were going to the movies not sure which one yet but there,s plenty to choose from. So for now i giotta run Peace~

My Battle with Bipolar Disorder

Greetings Evreyone well today i met with my Dr and she was able to determine that im suffering from severe Bipolar disorder. The diagnosis stunned me but my Dr is confident she will be able to bring my condition under control with the use of medication which i will start tomorrow. Im feeling relieved that i finally will be able to get my life back under control and start feeling good again. I called my friends and they were very relieved that i finally got a correct diagnosis. For the first time in a long time im feeling optimistic about my future. Tonight i will be going to the midnight viewing of Twilight that should be fun. i hope evreyone has a great day!!!

Greetings all Today was not a very good day. From the moment i woke up evreything that could go wrong did go wrong. It definitely made me feel very agaitated and on edge and i was already feeling depressed yet again. On the Bright side i have my appt with My Dr Tomorrow and hopefully she will be able to assess my condition and give me the correct diagnosis because if she cant im not sure how much more of this i can take. I have already been having suicidal ideations this week and sometimes i just feel like it would be better if i was dead. Hopefully tomorrow will be a turning point. I need to go get some sleep have a great night evreyone.

Hey All Hows it going? I hope evreyone,s Monday has gotten off to a good start. As for me im feeling pretty good I had a smile on my face and a spring in my step and i felt fantastic today evreything was absulutely perfect. It was a great day just not a very eventful one but thats ok because usually eventful days for me atre the bad ones. Ive been looking forward to this week because hopefully i will finally get the proper Diagnosis as to whats been happening with me emotionally over the last year. I feel hopeful that my journey through this hellish nightmare may finally be at an end. For now i need to run as i have a load of Homework to do but hopefully evreyone,s having a fantastic night ~ peace

Hello all well i put up my tree today and im really liking it. At first when i went to get it at the store i didnt think i was going to like it but it really has turned out quite nice. Today my plan is to relax and do as little as possible. Im almost completely ready for my Thanksgiving dinner party as i now have all the major things i need. Im feeling good and looking forward to this week. Well thats all i got for you but i thought i would leave you with a picture of my newly Decorated Christmas Tree.

Holiday Preperations in full swing!!!

Greetings evreyone and Happy Saturday!!! Im so glad the weekend is here after the week i had. Im feeling pretty much back to normal as far my moods go. Im definitely on an even keel and am hoping i stay stable untill my appt with My Dr Next week. So yesterday i went out and bought all the food for my Thanksgiving dinner which is exactly 2 weeks from today and truth be told im getting pretty excited. Today i will be purchasing my Faux Christmas tree and putting it up which im pretty excited about. I cant believe that im actually looking forward to the holidays this year instead of dreading them it feels amazing!!! a HUGE part of that has to do with my amazing friends i truly am very blessed!!! Well for now i need to go. Its time to go find the perfect tree. Have a fantastic weekend evreyone!!!

Greetings all well i was feeling slightly better than i have in the past few days dare i say normal? Nothing too exciting happened with me although i did put together my lfinal list for things i need for my Thanksgiving dinner and tomorrow i will be getting said food. It was actually a fairly long day for me and im feeling pretty tired so i will be say good night shortly. I hope evreyone had a fantastic day.

Today has not been much better than yesterday as my feelings of overwhelming sadness continued today but i did force myself out of the house and to eat today so i guess im a little bit better than yesterday. I seriously need to snap out of this funk im in. Tommorrow i have to go see my Orthodontist to get a new retainer as Shiloh got a hold of my first one and chewed it all to hell that definitely did not make me happy. Also i need to start shopping for my Thanksgiving dinner party and start looking at Christmas trees as i would like to have one up for my party. Not much else is going on this week in the way of exciting things. Have a great day evreyone.

What goes up must come down

Today was in a word AWFUL the euphoric high that i had most of yesterday where my thoughts were racing and i seemed to have boundless energy has now given way to an overwhelming depression. I felt Lethargic today and decided to stay in bed. My appetite seems to have vanished and i had no motivation to do anything at all. Unfortunately i was forced out of bed by Shiloh who still needed to be taken care of no matter how horrible i was feeling.Im hoping tomorrow will be better but im not holding my breath. Hope evreyone has a great night.

My inner Demons Begin to Resurface

Hey all its Monday BLAH and that means its the start of another week. i definitely am just not feeling good. i felt very keyed up this morning when i woke up and as the day has progressed my thoughts have began to accelerate and i have not been able to focous or concentrate on any one thing as my mind jumps from topic to topic. It was very frusturating for me to feel like i simply was not in control. So i think its fair to assume that my mental health issues are back in full force. It scares me to think of whats going to happen next. My mood feels very elevated and i feel very irritated and really had to work hard to not blow up at anybody today. Im prepared for a possible long drawn out fight if My Dr cannot figure out whats wrong fairly quickly but im hoping that she will be able to so i can get on some meds to stabilize my deterorating mental health. Have a good night evreyone.

Greetings well today wasnt a very exciting day i spent the day hanging around the house and playing with Shiloh. Im feeling ok yet again not great but not horrible either i can live with this. Even though at the time i feel good it seems the closer the holiday season gets the more aprehensive i become. I wish i didnt have this feeling of impending doom hanging over me. For once it seems i have evreything ive ever wanted i have a wonderful group of friends who i know i havent known very long but they have seen me at my worst and they are still standing behind me in solidarity and they love me unconditionally and that in itself to me is amazing i just wish that i could enjoy it a little more than im able to at the moment. I need to run Have a great night evreyone.

Decking the halls

Greetings all and what a fantastic day it has been. Today i started decorating for the impending holidays. So to that end i did a through job of getting my apt cleaned. I steam cleaned the capets and started putting up decorations. I put up a nativity scene and hung a lighted wreath above the fireplace. I strung garland around the walls of my apt and it looks very festive. Yea i know its a bit early but i really want to try and enjoy this holiday season. I have so much to be thankful this year. Next week i will be buying all my food for my Thanksgiving dinner as well as a faux Christmas tree. Im really looking forward to celebrating the holidays and being surrounded by all my friends and the people who mean the most to me. I was feeling exceptionally good today which i think played a part in my wanting to decorate today but i plan on enjoying this overall feeling good as long as i can because god knows it wont last forever. Well for now i need to run but i hope evreyone is having a great day.

Barrack Obama Elected 44th President Of The United States

Greetings Evreyone History was made last night as Barrack Obama swept to victory last night as he was elected the 44th President Of The United States and The first African American. Obama was a a little known state Senator just 4 years ago when he spoke in 2004 at the Democratic Convention. His Canidacy was always considered a long shot against such heavyweights as Hillary Clinton who tryed to become the first female President and John Mccain who eventually became his Republican challenger. Throughout the 21 month campaign both John Mccain and Obama both told voters that they would take the country in a different direction than it has been going in the last eight years under George Bush. Mccain a vietnam Vetran and P.O.W Is a 26 year Senator of Az who cast himself as a maverick who had the expierence to be Commander in Chief and That his oppent did not. Obama linked Mccain to the very unpopular Bush saying that a vote for Mccain was a vote for Bush. In the end Obama,s message of change resonated with voters and many of the red states that have long been Republican turned Blue. At 11pm Eastern time Obama claimed a sweeping victory after he claimed Pennsylvania and Ohio and had 349 electoral votes well over the 270 needed. Mccain conceed and offered his help in the new administration saying that it will take all of us to help turn this country around and get it on the right track. Obama gave his acceptance speech in Grant Park Chicago later that night to an estimated 500.00 people and said that his victory did not belong to him but to the people who had been with him in the last 21 months who had believed in him and that the work ahead of him would be tough and that it might not get done in one year or even one term. Obama faces extraordinary challenges as this country is in the midst of the worst financial crisis since the great depression and with two wars going on in Afghanistan and Iraq and it will definitely be intresting to see what will transpire over the next 4 years. I personally have full confidence in what he wants to do and i look forward to a time of renewed prosperity in this country. After the last eight years of failed policies and the constitution being trampled on i do believe that this country needs to change and that Barrack Obama will bring that change we so desperately need.

Election Day

Greetings all well its finally here after 21 months of campaigning the presidential race will finally be decided tonight. I went and cast my vote this morning and later on tonight ill be getting together with Kyle to watch the election returns come in. Im feeling so-so not depressed but not good either. i really wish things would settle down with me emotionally but that doesnt seem to be in the cards for me. Im hoping that my Dr will have a better idea as to Whats wrong with me the next time i see her in a couple of weeke but untill then ill just have to do my best to hold things together. One thing is for sure i simply cant fall apart right now there,s too much going on at the moment. If i can just get through thanksgiving then i can let my gaurd down a little and i wont feel like im under so much pressure. Well i gotta run i hope evreyone is having a fantastic day and remember get out and Vote your vote counts!!!

Hello All im having a great day and im feeling good and being very productive im in between classes right now and had some free time so i thought id post. Its definitely starting to look and feel like fall. I was reminded of this this morning as i was headed to school and got caught in a torrential down pour. Needless to say i was completely drenched by the time i reached my first class aqnd am still all wet but im not complaining. i absulutely love this time of year. For me its when i reflect on the events of the last year and remember all the good and in some cases bad things that have happened. this year has been a real doozy of a year but its also been balanced out by some amazing things that have happened. Mainly its the people i have met this year that love me and continue to show me unwavering support despite me having been hospitalized involuntarily to a pshyciatric ward and the general choas that seems to have been a daily part of my life thus far this year. My friends you are the most amazing people ive ever met i love you all. Well now i need to run but i hope evreyone has a fantastic day!!!

Preperations underway for Thanksgiving Celebration

Greetings all well today was not a very good day for me as far as how i was feeling as an overwhelming sense of doom seemed like it was hanging over me however i knew i needed to try to put my feelings aside today and start planning my Thanksgiving dinner party that i will be hosting on November 29th with all my friends from Bellingham. So to that end i got together with my friend Kyle and we went in search of a table that would accomodate my guests and lucky us we found one at Sam.s Club what was unlucky was that it didnt quite fit into the trunk of Kyle,s car so we had to go get some bungee cord to strap it in for the trip home. So with that out of the way the next thing i need to do is make up a list of things i need to do and get for the dinner so some time this week ill have to sit down and do that. Kyle has volunteered his help which is great ill take all the help i can get at this point. So this week will be fairly busy with school but also im hoping to get together with Kyle on tuesday to watch the Election Returns. I hope evreyone had a great weekend. Peace~

Lazy weekend

Greeting all I hope evreyone is enjoying there weekend i know i am. I woke up this morning feeling good dare i say normal? It feels good to be feeling back to normal after the horrible week ive had. Not doing much today just lounging around the house watching t.v and basically relaxing and recharging after a very emotionally and mentally draining week and looking forward to this week as we will be electing a new president that should be intresting as well as historic. Have a great weekend evreyone.